I just don't know

Slm.
Hey my Dear.
Miss you like crazy.
Sorry I didn’t visit you for a long time.
Been busy.
A lot happened.
I’ll tell you ‘bout it later ok.
During raya holiday.
Promise.

I just wanna say,
Aniq’s time won’t be long.
That’s what I heard from others.
I’m… idk.
I wanna cry but I just couldn’t.
He’s leaving, forever.
I felt like he’s taking away my spirit with him.
I just don’t know what is wrong with me.
I really hope He’ll give me some clue.
I’m hopeless and clueless.
I don’t have anyone to speak to or anyone who can understand me.
Other than Him.
ALLAH, help me.

That’s all for now.
I’m feeling like crying.
See you later Dear.

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